damn, god damn, i still am busy as hell and yet i can't find a way to keep myself healthy. now i have pink eye (don't even ask how i got it) and some sort of respirtory sickness. the band is doing really well. we are now on myspace, but i really have no idea who goes on their and what it's about and i think the web site is www.myspace.com/skudboys and i think that our music might be on it but i could be wrong. well i thought i'd just let you all know that i'm still alive even though i feel dead.

i think this is a long over due time for me to post. well i like my new job but their are things that make me want to kick the shit out of the other workers like when they hold us over 5 hours over our off time and by bthe time i get home i don't even have enough time to get ready for anything but sleep and when i'm not on the go relaxing i usually fall asleep where ever i'm at. i usually work anywhere from 40 hours to 65 hours a week. believe me i don't complain about the check but when you can't yourself healthy while the same time trying to keep another from dying and what not it takes a hard and fast toll on your body. i finally am better from the past sicknesses i've had but i think someone else is trying to give me more viruses.  all i do now is eat, work, party as hard as i can on the weekends, and find time to pay bills, play shows, and work on new stuff with the band. now is that busy or what...not really. it's kinda sucks with hours and all b/c i live with my bro and i see him but twice a week, god i live with the dude. a very good thing about this job is that i see so much suffering that i look at my life and see that hey my life is not as bad as that i should be more greatful for what i got b/c i could have had half the shit i saw that these people have done to me or happen to me. so now i really try not to complain about the wonderful life that has come my way.

so yeah the band is going really well. we play another show this saturday and maybe this friday depending on what time i get out of work. so hopefully all goes well and i'll play more shows now that i have a good amount of money coming my way (better equipment). so i hope all of yous guys are in better health then my patients.

take care, rucker

 man oh man i've been so busy these past couple of days that i've not even had enough time to sleep which really sucks when your sick b/c you need rest to get better and without sleeping enough it takes a lot longer to get healthy. thank god i got out early for work today otherwise i would have gone insane. our shifts are usually 8 hours long but their is a policy about if they need more people for the job they can hold you over up to three hours longer then when your shift is suppose to end. do you know what that means?...that means mad over time hours which is really good for someone fresh onto the medical field. everyone at my station keeps telling me that i'm just a baby that i'm young as hell and that in three months i will hate my job and start looking for a new one. the average age at the station are late 20s and early 30s so theres a lot of veterans their that have been doing this for a long time. but who cares if i'm only 19 they hired me and i passed all the test so they can't talk any shit about how old i am what i've seen but everyones nice to me which is really good b/c i'm one of those quiet ones so if they make me feel uncomfortable then i usually treat the person like an asshole.

tonight i'm going to my bro's girlfriends birthday party which me and my bro are setting up which should be fun and tomorrow we will be going to my sisters keg party for her 25th b-day. all i got to say about that is my liver is going to hate me and start eating itself.

well the band might end up playing in a venue in downtown chicago on st. patty's day and then like 2 weeks later we will be playing the day after april fools days. at the show we got rid of all the demos which meant people actually liked us. so now we will be recording new material as soon as we get a bigger following, hopefully that will be soon.

well i started work on monday but it's training and we still get paid the same amount with is awesome as hell and the training is kinda boring though i start the real ambulence stuff on monday. i have to drive 50 miles to and from work which sucks but the car has god gas mile age but like that matters with how expensive it is. thank god i'll be makeing a good chunk of money. 

the show was alright but we did really good. about 200 people showed up which was nice but before we went on about 75 of the people left which really gave me the i don't give a shit attitude. our music was nearly flawless but with any band ppl aren't perfect and the people that did stay gave us a lot of support which really helped. hey i made 50 bucks and the ppl their loved us which made me finish the set.

this really suckes tring to go to training and having either pnemonia or strep throat and tomorrow i have to take the drive portion of the test which is going to suck even more b/c i'm not used to anything bigger then a mini-van. the good thing is if i fuck up i get to take the test and class for the driving over again but if i pass the first time that will do so i can start to get the big bucks.

as of next janurary i will be going to paramedic class if i get accepted b/c i will be getting paid while i go to school, all i had to say about that was where can i sign up.

well i'll be leaving yous now, take care

rucker

 well all i got to say right now is that as of yesturday which was wednesday i'm officially an emt for superior. i went to the elmhurst head quarters just fill out an application and two hours later i was being interviewed for the postion. well it was really cool b/c my uncles started at the exact same thing as i'm doing now and now they are big wigs of the company, i think that they had a little to do with the fact that they let me on with hardly looking at my application. pretty much all the lady did was ask me questions about how many people were in my family and what high school i went to. the same day i went and got my uniform and my wizz quiz (urine test) i think that i passed the test and if i didn't i'm FUCKED. but hey i hadn't touched any type of drug for a long time so it shouldn't have shown up on the results. i start working this monday which is going to be a pain and a joy at the same time. the good thing about starting now is that i will be getting 2500 dollar bonus with my walking in the door and the bad is my job will be 50 miles from my house for the first couple of weeks until i'm at one of the stations for good but for 2500 dollars i would do a little more. man things are starting to look so good right now i'm waiting for something really bad to happen b/c nothing this good lasts long but right now i shouldn't be thinking negative so i'll soak it all up.

 the big show is this saturday and i can't wait until the people go nuts in the pit well i gotta gets going right now b/c the bands going to have a short little practice before the show.

take care,  rucker

 so saturday everyone couldn't make it to my house until later then i told them to come but we worked on it and now my friend joe is burning demos like crazy so by the time this show comes up i hope that all will like and buy our stuff. i went to a show on that night also it was alright a couple of 3rd wave ska bands that weren't half bad but the people their were ultra lame but i skanked like crazy and i was knocking all these assholes around on the ground into other people and punched a couple b/c of their snotty gestures and shitty attitudes w/ me and the other people at the show. there was this bitch at the show that i have talked to and hung around a little i gave her a flier and told her to go to the show but she smacked it out of my hands and when her friend picked it she ripped it out of friends hands and slapped it into my face, that really pissed me off so i waited until the next band came on so that i could get a little revenge and so i held off until the band had a certain part of their set where many people like to sing with them so at that moment when the "bitch" got to the mike, my friend and i ran towards it he took them low and i took them high by jumping and punching the one bitch in the head and smacked her friends heads together and they all fell. it was really funny. i also did the asshole thing of kicking the shit out of someone smaller then me but i justify it to what i think is wrong and right, the kid was hailing the band in the attempt to piss people and he did b/c the same song i pushed him really hard and the next song i beat the shit out of him. pretty much anyone who supports ideas of what was left underneath the nazi salute deserves to get their ass kicked exspecailly since 6 million people died under that salute but hey i don't feel bad for my actions what i did was right. later that night i found out that the bitch has had 2 abortions and is only 15 years old. she needs to get killed b/c someone who is that unrespectful to themselves and other shouldn't be allowed to reproduce. and couple of hours after that i went to my friend bens house. i walked up to his apartment and into the door and saw mike, katie, ben, and a girl that i didn't recognize. i sat down wondering who the hell this hot chick was and the first thing that came to mind was that mike had actually got a girlfriend. if you knew the guy you would wonder why his parents had kids like that, he's insane and has no confidents or anything like that to attract any woman, so i take a second and thrid look to see if i've met her before and it was ben's sister. i thought to myself oh my god she got hot as hell. i hadn't seen her in a year and a half and at that time she had really short hair and it was black when i saw her this time she had brown and blond streaks in her hair, it was a little longer, and her face slimed up a bit but she was cute before. too bad she's taken, it's just one of those cases of look but don't touch. either way it's my friend ben's sister i don't think he will think too highly of that.

yesterday the band practiced for the show i think we are ready to make 10s of people go crazy, no hopefully we just get enough people to go to the show so that we aren't in the hole for renting out the place. it will be fun but i think that i should keep a lower profile until all is blown over with the hitler youth people b/c they're out to kick my ass.

take care,  rucker

 so now the weather is almost in the 50's can you believe that i think it's suppose to drop again really soon but i can walk around out side without a jacket on so its nice. the other day spent the night a my friend mikes house b/c i hadn't hung out with him in three months and we live in the same town. but it was fun except for the fact that him and his girlfreind were fucking in the other room while i was watching the movie "oi the video" with my friend chris and adam. the movie was good or video i mean whatever. i watched another film called "suburbia" made in the 80's it was alright kinda cheesy in some parts but a pretty good movie overall about punks and skind and outcasts from broken homes. i came home the next day and waited for my bassist to get to my house and we finished the demo finally but now we have to finish the art work for the cover and the band photos for the up and coming site that we are in the works of completeing or rather starting.we have to go back one of the tracks of the last songs and redo the vocals b/c they are off a spilt second but atleast thats the least of our worries.  today we will be working on the cover and all but it's all good in the neighborhood. next week on saturday we will be headlinng the punk show and release our ep hopefully we get 300 to 400 people at the show but i'll be happy if their is anywhere between 150 and 300, that's enough to spread the word of our music. well i should get to going right now b/c i have to get busy on the ep.

adios, the rucker

 all i have to say right now is where the hell can you find a decent scally caps that doesn't look all gay. what happened to the traditional look of caps and hats. well the temperture has just dropped from being in the 40s to the 20s so i think i will take a walk today. life is good right now so i'll soak it all in while i still can.

take care everyone, rucker

 well i'm a stupid ass b/c i totally forgot about how you have to interview people for the job but that will be going on this week so it will be fun and interesting. i will have to do the application, interview, agility test and a drug test. thank god i quit drugs a year and a half ago. but it all makes sense b/c i don't want an idiot that's high on drugs and not able to do the job.

the show was a big disasterb/c i was so drain of energy as was my drummer and our bassist was so sick at the end of the set he almost had to go to the hospital b/c he was so out of it. he's getting better. anyway back to the show, we had a lot of energy but were running on empty and we put all we had into that performance. we really were on our F game but had an A for effort in my opinion. at least the crowd was cheering really loud other wise i would have stoped playing after the second song. their was no pitting allowed at the show and the quite a few people got kicked out of our set (that was cool) b/c of the big ass circle pits. only if the crowd would have picked up on the mistakes we made then they would have probably have bood us off the stage. it was nice to get all the kids coming up to us after the show and give us compliments. if anything we got a lot of good picture with my friends camera.

on saturday we were going to finish the recording and i decided that everyone needed to get better and rest until during the week when we'll definitely finish everything with our EP. my friend that was sick got a new tatoo this weekend and it came out really nice. he bled a lot too but the art was amazing, i think that i'll get my tatoos from his artist b/c he has the 3 thing i think a tatoo rtist should be/have: good at what he does, clean and cheap.

why did phili have to lose against the patriots. i hate the patriots. they didn't deserve it. donovan mcnabb should have gotten the lombardi trophy. oh well their's always next season.

well i'm outtie,  rucker

 well now i must go to the show three hours away from my house...just kiddin. it's only a half hour drive with traffic it's not far. i might start working as an EMT this monday so all yous cross yo fingas. if i don't respond next week i'm getting situated with all the emt stuff and training to drive the ambulance.

as for the recording we have 3 tracks left for the last songs. we did the guitar and the drums yesterday and tomorrow we will be doing the the bass the vocals and the chorus'. it will be but a pain...it's a very gradual slow proccess after all is done. but will be decent in the long run.

well i'd be signing off now...i got three hours til the show, wish me luck.

take care, rucker